subconsciously

Goodbye. You died, so I could live

I recognize that you are me and I am you

But I’ve severed all that once defined you–consumed you

You grew up wishing to be anything or anyone else

This is what you-I-we wanted

To grow into something else, but you couldn’t see past this mountain.

You stood paralyzed by its shadow–too scared of change

You always made safe bets

But you got it all wrong

I lie here in this bed, waiting for my true love–a love you could never reach

You were too flawed, too judgemental, and not empathetic enough

I became everything you could not be

I write this letter to say goodbye

I don’t miss you